At The End of a Hard Day You Love Them Even More

Happy Mother’s Day everyone!!  Hats off to all you amazing Mama’s out there, and also all you women that might not be moms right now, but do so much good in this world to help raise up these sweet children!  This motherhood job is not an easy task. These last few weeks have been a bit of a doozy in the motherhood department for me.  I wrote this last weekend after a hard weekend of motherhood.

This last Friday was a challenge! It actually started the night before. My husband has been out of town for the last two weekends at a leadership Scout training camp. As a side note, let me just say how grateful I am for my husband and all that he does for me. He works his tail off during the day, and when he comes home he helps out A LOT! I realized that even more so this weekend because he was not there. Just having him home in the evenings to be with, to talk to, to play and help the kids, and help me get the house straightened up, is so wonderful.  Anyway, on Thursday night I could not sleep. When my husband is out of town I usually have a hard time falling asleep. So I stay up until I am dead tired. I was up till about 12:30 when my 7 year old came out sobbing saying that his legs were hurting him. He has mega growing pains right now and it is so sad to see him in so much pain. I helped him and then went to bed. As I was laying there I realized I had about five things on my list of stuff I had to get done today that I did not get done. I got up out of bed transferred some money that needed to be transferred, I wrote out a few checks, and sent a couple of emails. By 1 o’clock I was ready to get back in bed, but out came my cute son sobbing again about the pains. I rubbed his legs for him for a little bit and put some essential oils on them. I went to lay in bed and when I finally fell asleep my son again woke up at 3 o’clock crying about his legs. I finally got him back in bed and I fell asleep around 3:30. Just when I felt like I was finally asleep I heard my baby crying.  When I looked at the clock it said 6:30. 3 hours of sleep, ugh.

I got up, got him breakfast and laid back in bed and turned on a show for my 3 year old. My older kids got up and came in to watch. When I finally realize that going back to bed was not an option, I got up and informed the kids that if we wanted to go on our field trip with our homeschool group we needed to get ready, get dressed and do our jobs in one hour. That should not be a very hard task, but for my sweet oldest son who sometimes struggles focusing, it was not an easy task. By the time we were supposed to leave he had only eaten breakfast and gotten dressed. He still had his bed to make and jobs to do. I kept giving him warnings, but would find him playing with LEGOs, wandering around the house, or writing in this journal, which is a great thing, but was not what I asked him to do. By the time it came around that we were supposed to leave he was not even close to being done. I left him home. He cried, and so did I as I pulled out of the driveway. Hardest thing ever, but I know it won’t happen again.  

Usually I’m pretty good at holding to my threats, except for when it has to do with going somewhere. I’m kind of a sucker for not letting my kids miss out. Something I need to work on for sure. So off we went on our field trip. It was a lot of fun, but we missed our brother. It bit stressful when I thought I lost my 7 year old who ran ahead of everybody to get back to the parking lot. After having a long talk with him about safety and staying together as a group, we went home. We ate lunch and I went to put my baby to bed. I will mention that my baby is a two year old, but he is still my baby :-). My daughter shares a room with the crib in it where he sleeps at night, but he normally sleeps in my room in a pack and play during his naps. He has recently learned to get out of the pack and play so I have had to resort to him having his naps in his sisters room. Today he learned to get out of the crib. 🙁 For over an hour I rocked him and sang songs to him. I even tried to put him to bed in his brothers toddler bed, which ended in a disaster in his brothers room pulling out all of the stuff from their various drawers. He did finally fall asleep two hours after I tried putting him down.

The hours between 4 & 6 are usually terrible. So we invited some friends over and the kids had some fun, until my seven and nine year old boys had a full on knock down drag out war over Legos in their bedroom. That ended in friends having to go home and us eating quesadillas for dinner. I had a couple errands to run and on our way home my 4 year old fell asleep in the car. Excited because it was already after his bedtime I scooped him up, change him into his jammies and laid him in his bed. Then his eyes popped open and he was done. I got him a snack and got him to bed and got the other kids in their beds. The two year old kept coming out of his crib, asking for a rock a bye, which I did give him, but I will not give 20 rockabyes. Finally he wore himself out and went to bed!The house is now quiet, the kids are asleep and I’m blogging. When I look back on the day it was pretty crazy. It wasn’t a typical easy carefree day. It was busy, stressful and completely exhausting, but it was a day! We made it through!  It was not an easy day, I was mad at them during various times of the day, but that doesn’t change how much I love them.  As I walked in their room tonight, I realized I love them even more.  We got through hard things, the kids learned great lessons and so did I.   I love being a mom. It is the hardest job in the world, but at the end of each day when my kids are safe, and we have made it through the day I am ready to take on the next day, but I’m hopeful, and prayerful, that the next day will be a little bit easier!  One can hope right? 🙂

Get ready for my next story about the next weekend when I slammed my finger in the door at my daughters soccer game, screamed, cried, and almost passed out…..It’s a good one I will save for next week!

Another Post About Motherhood if you want to read more!…We Are The World To Them!  

Happy Mother’s Day everyone!