Motherhood – It’s what God gave me time for – Baby #5

 My baby is now 3 weeks old.  Can you even believe that?  Crazy huh?  I was talking to my hubby the other day about how long the days seem with a newborn but how fast the weeks go.  As most of you know I don’t like it.  I want time to slow down, I hate how fast my sweet kids are growing up, yet I love to see the little people they are becoming.  This sweet baby is so good.  Pretty textbook child.

He eats, stays awake for a little bit and then falls asleep in my arms.  I love to hold him, which is funny because with my other children I loved holding them, but was pretty strict about them being in their beds when they sleep.  With him I don’t mind holding him as much as possible!!  Probably because he is most likely (99.9%) our last child, I just want to hold him as much as I can.  He is kind of sick right now, darn it.  All my kids have had mega allergies and he was the last to get the cough that has been going around.  I am praying he stays healthy, but his sleeping has gotten worse because of it…poor baby.

Having a new baby hasn’t been easy though.  Before he came I could go workout when I wanted to at nights,  I could go on a girls night without having to look at the clock, I could eat what ever I wanted and not worry that my baby was going to be fussy because I ate it, and I could sleep through the night.  Now I am super tired, and at times I just wish I could get out of the house and do what I want to do.  I know this time won’t last long, and the thought of that makes me sad.  Motherhood is what I signed up for, and I love every part of it, as hard or as tiring as it is.  I feel so blessed to be a mom.